Tuesday, June 29, 2010

My country and citizens habit

i post this at first time, at my beloved campus.
in case, that i'm continue about my internship report 2weeks ago :)
so that i'm just trying to look side by side about my country habits

last time i saw some post on twitter about piracy.
yeah, we already know and saw there are so many i wanna describe
at least, make it my mind more sharp :p

i saw about some musicians that already had enough about piracy.
and i was thinking to myself.. if i were them, i would make a war with that ocnum.
nowadays we are becoming modern,
and disadvantage of its that made piracy up to the earth.

i will change my mind how i supposed to do..
i will make another ways to SELL my creativity (for example my music)
by they had stolen at first..

i will build my new debut via internet, in terms and condition
they could download as usual, BUT with money credits like paypal, etcetera

how is it looks like in your opinion?
eventhough lately, it could change by the environment minds.
at least we try to our best to learn and do the action!

am i just the only one who think so cruel like this?

Monday, June 28, 2010

I actually need it, but...

hi visitors, what's up?
hope you're doing well all the activities
we have to get freedom! all the good things

sometimes, i missed a moment to have somebody to love.
it was like, you belongs to him, fight together, or other girly thinks
ah whatever!

but being two, eventhough its better than one..
would it solve all my problems?
Its too much problems that i could not solve all by myself.
yeah i'm happy being single

being a half part, when around you already be a part.
isn't it so silly to think like me?

i just really want it, not a need.
i hope someday i will get it, in a perfect situation, with a right person
amin :)

Sunday, June 27, 2010


hip hip huraaaaaaay!
fiuh finally i changed my template blog,
because its sooo damn bored using my old template

look fresh now,huh? lol

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

who has to be helped?

i'm with kids character, and need somebody to help me
you're with your mature character, and no need for helping hands

we sailed our boat last journey
but it was before I found the real you
yeah sucks! really sucks!
more than slaps, I will do it!

I found something more sucks than that,
hey... I could really see you are still alone,
more than just a man looking for nothing
more than just a man fight for nothing

you are really alone

you get lost in yourself
even though we are in the same condition,
but oh dear, how poor you?

maybe in that boat, our sailed were leak,
we both were drowned,
and we need to find a helping hand, but you've decide to help me

your hands were there to hold me until somebody came to save me,
but you lost your life,
now you've drown.. you were live alone

no one has to know,
but its only you

*at that time i realized, i have to help you as soon as possible..
but HOW?

Sunday, June 6, 2010

i don't really get it

IF its true, that was hard for me to say LOVE
yes its true,
because I love to play with boys or men
they're so easy to solve something, that's why I become tomboy
and for me, they are same
hard for me to choose who're so special :p

IF its true, that I'm already forget about you
NO its not true,
in fact, I still trying to set you free
because you're more happier with those people, but not me :)

IF its true, that someday we'll meet again,
trust me, I'm surrender :)
not because that me so weak, but its true that hard for me to let you go
through my days and night

FAIR enough, if that things were broken possibly we could fix it
at least, as time goes by
let it answer, because I don't really get it

Thanks GOD

i never have a one day full of gifts!

hahahaha really make me sooo happy

at first, my grandma's sister gave me 2 cute bags and others stuffs!
what a lovely grandma's sister, thankyouuu :*

then another gifts come
WEAM gave me this
love you king :*

i have too much gifts today, thankyouuu
*now i will go offline,
and do my best for graduate on 3years and marry with him
*over confidence lol

Friday, June 4, 2010

Good news!

this month, June, wont be the worst month of the year

yes i'm happy, because this month sooo meaningful to me!
a half of the year that I still alive
a half of the year, I could see my bad things
so it means that i will be better person before year ended :D

no more tears
no more sorrow
no more bad dream
just blessing month after all, and i can smile again now!

its because of YOU(GOD)
i won't be able to live alive without YOU
please be with me, forever and ever :D
oh great, i do more loooooove my GOD!

Thursday, June 3, 2010

titik jenuh

saya jenuh, saya jenuh
ya saya jenuh menjadi diri saya

saya tau, saya sadar
sifat anak kecil ini sudah waktunya dilepas,
dan saya harus jadi mandiri yang kuat

namun, sifat dewasa yang akan saya lahirkan akan berdampak buruk,
saya akan menjadi seorang yang lebih defensif,
ya, saya akan lebih jarang lagi buat sharing, hehe

saya dilahirkan sendiri, maka saya harus pulang sendiri
itulah kehidupan saya
bukan berarti saya sombong bisa sendiri semua,
namun saya percaya Allah akan membantu dan menemani saya
saya akan jadi pribadi yang lebih kuat

yaa Rabb, izinkan saya berubah,
izinkan hidayah berupa ilmu terberat, ilmu ikhlas saya jalani..
hanya kepadaMU saya memohon, hanya KepadaMU saya meminta perlindungan,
hanya kepadaMU saya akan kembali..

bersihkan diri saya sekali lagi,
maka saya berjanji akan menjadi makhluk yang Engkau banggakan yaa Allah..
terimalah doa hamba, jauhkan dari apa yang kau benci
amin yaa rabbal alamin

Wednesday, June 2, 2010


saya baru ingat, saya pernah merequest sesuatu..
dan itu membuat saya berpikir, kamu membacanya?
saya menulis bukan karena saya tidak dapat berbicara,
namun saya tipe sulit berekspresi,

saya sayang, tapi malah marah..
seharusnya saya diam, saya malah cerewet :">
seharusnya saya cuek(berusaha cuek tepatnya),
tapi saya selalu berusaha berbicara pada anda

saya mengerti apa yang anda ungkapkan,
namun saya malah menepisnya
saya membutuhkan, kenyataan saya membuang semuanya

jahat ya saya? hehe

lonely no more

Lonely No More lyrics

Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
But words are only words
Can you show me something else
Can you swear to me that you'll always be this way
Show me how you feel
More than ever baby

Now its hard for me with my heart still on the mend
Open up to me, like you do your girlfriends
And you sing to me and it's harmony
Girl, what you do to me is everything
Make me say anything; just to get you back again
Why can't we just try

What if I was good to you, what if you were good to me
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me
What if it was paradise, what if we were symphonies
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you

I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want to know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more
You know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure
I don't want to be lonely anymore

it does not matter at all


it doesn't matter at all, if i lived with all the pain
maybe it will take me back to the blackhole, of sorrow.
i'd rather to choose in this way,
because there's only thing i could do.


and my life was YOURS, my savior, my beloved GOD.
thanks for create this selfcontrolling month every year.
so it means i'll never ever leave YOU :D

Tuesday, June 1, 2010


kalo saya hanya berdiam disini,
saya rasa percuma, toh alam semesta tidak semalas itu untuk diam!
yaa kali gitu saya tidak punya rasa malu buat gerak? alam semesta bisa ngejek nanti :p

saya baru menyadari berjalan itu susah,
oke secara teori, belajar dari merangkak, di titah, kemudian berdiri dan jalan..
jika berjalan, harus berhati - hati, ga lucu kasusnya kalau sampai ke-touch bajaj
(sakit sih engga, malu iya!)
tapi pernahkah anda merasa anda berjalan tetapi tidak niat?
saat anda sedang berubah menjadi dewasa, rasa ingin tahu anda lebih banyak..
gampangnya, anda lebih berhati - hati untuk berpikir daripada berjalan.
dan membuat saya berjalan tidak sempurna

pada saat berjalan, sesungguhnya saya seperti mumi
raga saya yang berjalan, tetapi ruh saya kemana-mana(diduga lagi have fun go mad)
tetapi pada saat saya berjalan, saya seperti kehilangan garis finish
saya berharap kapan saya berhenti?
apa yang ada di garis finish?

too much strange things in my mind
i need sleeping pills, sumpah cape!

pemikiran dan badan yang terbangun

sudah lama saya tidak begadang,
rindu juga ~ karena bisa ngurusin badan eyke booo! lemayan kan? :))
seharusnya saya bisa menjadi pribadi yang sebelumnya
dimana saya tidak harus tidur sampai pagi,
permasalahannya adalah saya sedang UAS, kesimpulan?sendiri lah ya :p

badan rontok
pikiran kusut
hati ga tenang
malas untuk belajar (hanya alibi -_____-")

saya lega sudah terbebas(masih dalam proses sih,hehehe)
tapi seenggaknya udah lega, dan memang harus gitu kayaknya,hmmm...
okelah saya tidak mau memikirkan suatu hal dengan dewasa..

loh kok ga mau?

karena pada suatu waktu, jika saya adalah sebuah bintang...
saya sudah mencapai titik jenuh, maka saya menjadikan bigbang!
lebih baik melakukan bigbang tersebut, daripada saya hidup segan mati ga minat?
saya berpikir sempit, karena pemikiran luas saya belum sampai
kemampuan saya masih sekedar pemikiran bocah
hahahahahahaha :))