being nice vs being naughty

hi bloggers/viewers.
how are you lately?

kemaren, saya menjemput adik di sekolahnya pada semester baru,
dan saya sama sekali tidak menyangka kalau waktu sudah menunjukkan perputaran selama satu tahun. which is good for me

dan kemaren pula, kekejaman otak menyuruh saya untuk beranalisis ria.
well kali ini spesial (martabak kali special)
serius! saya kali ini sharing dengan seorang pria,
sebut saja ahmad rizki -> ini memang namanya asli -____-

begini ceritanya,
otak saya berpikir keras, karena suatu hal yang membuat mood saya berubah jadi sangat drastis. well, saya tidak ingin menceritakan tentang hal ini, namun analisis yang terjadi.

selama ini, saya berharap selalu menjadi anak yang baik.
seperti pesan kedua orang tua saya, guru - guru saya, tetangga, dan masyarakat lainnya..
ya memang mereka mungkin berpesan seperti itu supaya selamat di dunia.
tapi anda lihat dan mengalaminya sendiri,bukan?
dunia dipenuhi trickster dan pembodohan secara tidak langsung kepada setiap individu(yang terlewat baik).
apakah bisa bertahan menjadi anak baik dengan lingkungan seperti itu?
bisa dibilang, manusia tersebut terpaksa menjadi seperti mereka(yang tidak baik)

sebaliknya, karena mereka terlalu dipengaruhi oleh lingkungan yang tidak baik, dan pressure dalam diri sendiri yang bertentangan, mereka akan memilih menjadi anak yang nakal.
jika anda adalah orang yang sangat berhati - hati dalam berpikir, nakal ini dibagi menjadi 2 jenis.
1. Tipe anak Jenius atau cerdas yang gampang bosan, dan mencari kebebasan yang kurang mengerti seperti apa pendeskripsiannya
2. Tipe anak yang gampang kepengaruh untuk menjadi "nakal"

sisi baik dari seorang anak nakal,
menurut salah satu komen dari teman saya, Dovianda Hasan
Anak nakal itu pengalamannya lebih banyak.
hahahaha aneh, tapi memang belum tentu anak baik memiliki pengalaman yang dimiliki anak nakal. seperti itu kah?

namun itu semua sepertinya tidak berlaku jika memang individu tersebut berusaha mengetahui sisi baik dan buruk secara seimbang, berkumpul dengan individu yang pintar..
kedewasan yang mebuat semuanya jadi tidak berlaku,
satu sisi, mereka yang dewasa dengan pengalaman penangan setiap masalah,
dan kekebalan hati karena terbiasa menghadapinya
mungkin nakal menjadikan sesuatu hal yang lucu.
dan biasanya nih, kalo udah gitu senyum iblis kemenangan atas diri sendiri terbentuk
hahahahahaha dasar devil lo ma!

TAPI YANG SAYA TAU, ANAK BAIK BELUM TENTU BENER, BAGAIMANA JADINYA KALAU JADI ANAK NAKAL?
udah ga baik, seenaknya sendiri -> mau jadi separah apa?

TAPI KEMAREN SAYA SEMPAT INGIN MENJADI TIPE 1 LOH! hahaha
kenapa? karena mungkin saya menyadari kelemahan saya, maka pikiran tersebut ingin saya jadikan image nakal. *jangan ditiru, pemikiran yang bodoh :p

weak

in my opinions, i really love smile face when people get their happiness.
then i will make it shor-simply smile just like theirs become mine..
haha really i do love it make people help people as i can do

but lately, when they've already their own, and smile
i'm here alone.. and starting to sigh again and again
really i'm lonely

well for me, i wanna be independent, mature, and also strong..
besides, *sigh* i don't know how long i'm able to pretending all of these?
heart hurts,
crying eyes,
fragile smile,
damn! i hate to see the real me inside!

please GOD, let me be the strong one to face it all!
i need a hug, from YOU :'(

my star

this night would be just only me
i'm here alone waiting and hoping
and stare at my rooftop, thinking to myself why?

hey stars out of the sky,
may I take all my wishes to be with you?
so that I'm only able to see it, not for reach it?
could you just shine it, and allow me to dream tonight?

this feeling, i will not show it..
i'm scared, yeah i'm too scared if he knows..

I don't wanna make him confused, or i don't want to lose him.
i want to near him, just like this.
I'm hapy enough, I'm okay..

My country and citizens habit

i post this at first time, at my beloved campus.
in case, that i'm continue about my internship report 2weeks ago :)
so that i'm just trying to look side by side about my country habits

last time i saw some post on twitter about piracy.
yeah, we already know and saw there are so many i wanna describe
at least, make it my mind more sharp :p

i saw about some musicians that already had enough about piracy.
and i was thinking to myself.. if i were them, i would make a war with that ocnum.
nowadays we are becoming modern,
and disadvantage of its that made piracy up to the earth.

i will change my mind how i supposed to do..
i will make another ways to SELL my creativity (for example my music)
by they had stolen at first..

i will build my new debut via internet, in terms and condition
they could download as usual, BUT with money credits like paypal, etcetera

how is it looks like in your opinion?
eventhough lately, it could change by the environment minds.
at least we try to our best to learn and do the action!

am i just the only one who think so cruel like this?

I actually need it, but...

hi visitors, what's up?
hope you're doing well all the activities
we have to get freedom! all the good things

sometimes, i missed a moment to have somebody to love.
it was like, you belongs to him, fight together, or other girly thinks
ah whatever!

but being two, eventhough its better than one..
would it solve all my problems?
Its too much problems that i could not solve all by myself.
yeah i'm happy being single

but...
being a half part, when around you already be a part.
isn't it so silly to think like me?

i just really want it, not a need.
i hope someday i will get it, in a perfect situation, with a right person
amin :)

yippie!

hip hip huraaaaaaay!
fiuh finally i changed my template blog,
because its sooo damn bored using my old template

look fresh now,huh? lol

who has to be helped?

i'm with kids character, and need somebody to help me
you're with your mature character, and no need for helping hands

we sailed our boat last journey
but it was before I found the real you
yeah sucks! really sucks!
more than slaps, I will do it!

I found something more sucks than that,
hey... I could really see you are still alone,
more than just a man looking for nothing
more than just a man fight for nothing

you are really alone

you get lost in yourself
even though we are in the same condition,
but oh dear, how poor you?

maybe in that boat, our sailed were leak,
we both were drowned,
and we need to find a helping hand, but you've decide to help me

your hands were there to hold me until somebody came to save me,
but you lost your life,
now you've drown.. you were live alone

no one has to know,
but its only you

*at that time i realized, i have to help you as soon as possible..
but HOW?